im blessed.. in sum ways or another..
wen u're feeling down and ur imagination starts to run atrociously wild.. it's bes dat u count ur blessings...

i dont like being alone dese days... i start tinking too much.. i tend to tink too much.. u noe.. i needa stop running away from problems i face in relationships.. it's a bad habit i haf.. it's veri worrying wen it cums to relationships dat matter to mi alot..

im glad i dint go home so early today.. im planning to go out tomoro n seek refuge at sum ulu place alone.. cos i cant stand life at home.. i wenta jing's house n we both ended up slping on her bed tgt.. in a way.. she taught me dat certain things beyond our control.. we shouldn care so much n make ourselves so worried.. after all.. it's their lives.. it's up to dem ultimately.. we haf no rite frm stopping dem frm leading the way dey wna live their life..

im still prettaye worried abt mi mentee.. she's one i will not forsake.. i will cum up wif sumthing soon.. actly she reminded mi wen i was in cross alone as a IP1 wif all the horrible trngs.. but i guess i survived thru wif still okay CA results... i guess she's more fortunate in a sense.. deres cniors to guide her.. n a bonded team hu cares for her even thou dey dont say it.. not dat noone cared abt mi.. i did enjoyed miself at certain point of times.. wif pple like roxanne n szeling shower concern on me(:

dere was dis jnr hu came to mi to thank mi for caring so much abt her n her fren jus now.. i dont noe since wen.. i became veri attached to the J1s.. i bliff it's the same for every1.. as for Cel.. im still bearing hopes dat a miracle will happen.. she's dis gal i was hoping coach wld make a gk cos of her agility n of course.. it wld b great to haf another extra companion during gk trngs... but it's okay dat in the end every1 realised she had a flair for defending.. althou i didn share a veri deep relationship wif her.. but i swear she was dis cute and adorable gal who never fails to brighten up uani1's life weneva u see her cos of her optimistic personality.. she nver dwells too much on her mistakes.. she was nver complacent.. n strived so hard for excellence in soccer.. she takes every1's advice and guidance seriously.. n althou she still did not get the hang of certain things.. she nver gives up n i so swear dat wad made her stood out frm the rest was her perseverance n her never-say-die attitude... u noe.. i nver heard her say before "i cannot do it" nor gave excuses for herself despite her mistakes n all.. she was always smiling n slogging her guts out for the team.. so im not giving up yet.. cos it's Cel..

thanks every1 for caring.. even the cross guys(: althou i cant run dat well animore.. thanks for encouraging me=D.. alvin was telling mi to jus sign up for sports day n even if i dont do well in cross country.. the most i jus back out n dont turn up for the comp in the end.. abitta lack of sportsmanship.. but i sumhow tink it's a good idea... let's jus see how things go(: